and a new baby boy in the Midwest... and other stuff, too.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Not there yet
"Am I making something worthwhile out of this place?
Am I making something worthwhile out of this chase?
I am displaced.
I am displaced."
I just read this article this morning and I was moved to write. There's kind of a new movement I've seen among the Autism Spectrum Disorder community lately and its all about acceptance. I read in a book once that "acceptance is the answer to all my problems today." If you know this quote, then you're probably smiling right now. Moms of kids with ASD all over the place are becoming more and more comfortable with where their kids are today and accepting them as is, rather than trying to change them. Hmmm, maybe "change them" isn't the right terminology because I'm not trying to change my kid, but I really am. Wait, does that make sense? See, I'm trying to give her the best possible outcome. I'm spending vacations, new wardrobes, etc on her therapies, private schools, doctors, etc. in effort to help her reach her utmost potential. She's not there yet (right?!). We have a shitload of work to do and I'm afraid there's not a lot of time left. I'm working hard to get this kid to talk, interact, socialize, get to know her body in space, feel things, understand things, and finally to be a productive and functional member of society. I'm not done. I'm still going to spend my money, time, sweat, and tears on this journey.
I've got the will, strength, and courage. But acceptance? Nope. I'm not there yet.
Straight from the mind of